Last night was a brand of hell I kinda wish I never had to go through...I think I've completely lost my closest friend of 3 years...He wont talk to me or anything. Then it led me to think about other stuff...like what am I doing? I just live day in and day out living through text and pixels. Really I just wanna feel loved. And I drove the one person I got that from away. I didn't sleep last night just reoccurring nightmares of everyone leaving me which isn't much different from every night. I really don't know how much longer I can keep this up. I just want a hug. Someone who cares, I give all of myself to people I care about and I am left behind for girls who are whores and don't deserve the guys chasing them. Feelings so sick, I'm exhausted...I have to pretend to smile for so long tonight. I just want to see one person there and I doubt they even know how much it cheers me up, if I can just see him smile. It's 10:30 am...and I'm already breaking down..this will be a long day.
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